The Big Hole…

Having myself be tossed around like a rag doll, be called worthless, and felt like I was in the lowest point in my life then get picked up by someone who saw different in me. I feel like I am a good mom to my children and a good wife to my husband. But if I was ever asked about myself that would be a different story. With everything I have been through I have always told myself be strong, and I’ll get through this. I don’t think anyone ever really does.

I still feel like I am worthless, am no good to anyone and that everyone will leave me someday just because they can’t stand me. It’s the ‘depression’ that I feel will always haunt me. Make me look down on myself. The worst is my experiences have made me worried and I don’t think that it will ever go away.

I always tell myself to pull me out of the fog that I have two kids that make my day brighter, and people that care. A husband who is there when I need or want something. So why put myself down so much? Why make myself feel like I am no good enough or less than and feel like I don’t like what I see in the mirror? Maybe you can help me answer that.